TGISB!

Day 1 of Spring Break...

While most college students are most likely lounging on sunny beaches with Margaritas in their hands, I am soaking up the quietness of my house and reveling in the fact that I can have a leisurely healthy breakfast sitting at my kitchen table rather than a granola bar eaten in the car on the way to school. Plus I slept until 9:15 this am!! I must have been exhausted!

I have a jam packed week planned:

Monday: Clean house and do laundry. Watch Christine at night. This is my most fav show ever! Mondays @ 8:30 on CBS.

Tuesday: More of the same in the morning, Duluth by 11 for appt, friends for dinner and vitals (homework for my nursing class)

Wednesday: Redoing my home equity line so an appraiser is coming, as well as the chimney cleaner and a dishwasher repairman. Wow, who needs a beach and a margarita when you can have this much fun right here at home? Oh, and then I'll go to the potluck at church and attend lenten service. Sadly I haven't been there since they've been in the new bldg. I actually have attended more church in the cities or in Alabama since September, than I've attended my own.

Thursday: morning at the nursing home doing vitals and then a much needed lunch and outing with Janie!

Friday: Breakfast at Amazing Grace with fellow nursing students to study for upcoming test. Guess this means my spring break is over.

That's all for now!

What the hell am I doing?

I know I haven't blogged in a long time, but I really need to vent today and since I'm at school with no familar faces who might possibly be able to relate to my situation, I thought blogging might do the trick.

I started my nursing lab today... from 8 to noon every Thursday I will be learning all the essential skills necessary for me to pass my boards and become a competent nurse. I have to tell you that it scared me shitless. There is so much information and so much homework... not to mention finding time to make it to open lab to practice before testing out in front of a TA. Today our tasks were proper handwashing (got it), temp taking (got it), respiratory rate (never got to try), and practicing using our new stethoscopes and blood pressure cuffs. I couldn't even find a pulse on my partners skinny little arm! Then we went in to the simulation lab (think Monsters Inc.) and I couldn't even find a pulse on the simulation dummy! I could feel my heart start pounding out of my chest and knew I was freaking out. How the hell am I going to get through this? And why the hell am I putting myself through this?! I could be working in a normal cubicle environment collecting my extra widow money from our govt and coming home at night to sit on the couch and hang out with Brandon. Instead I race to school, study every spare moment between classes, race to Kickboxing, race home and throw dinner together with whatever happens to be around (last night we had hamburger, onions, tomato paste, diced tomatoes and tomato sauce over Kraft Easy Mac and Cheese -- pretty inventive, huh?). I talk to Brandon while we eat, and then off to my bedroom to study some more. When I'm not studying and actually doing something enjoyable like hanging with family/friends, I am feeling guilty for not studying or getting my house clean. I am so far behind in stuff... I have a sympathy card to send -- the person died on Christmas Eve! ... I still have a handful of Christmas cards to send out... I need to send a thank you card to the nurse I shadowed over break in the first week of January... anyway, you get the idea.

And the junior and senior nursing students and profs keep telling us that it is just going to get harder...

If I get through this in one piece it is going to be a miracle...